stuff

Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Dear Prudence won't you come out to play
Dear Prudence greet the brand new day
The sun is up the sky is blue
It's beautiful and so are you
Dear Prudence won't you come out to play

<3

oi
i want to eat bugs.
are there any restaurants in Toronto that serve bugs?
fucking righteous if there is

they should get rid of half the cows in the world
and replace the beef with artifical meat
made from bugs
...yes

if only i ruled the world

holy shit
new york city


just wow

there are many reasons why i must loathe thee Dylan Clark:


ANT204, UTM, Spring 2007, Prof. Dylan Clark.
Mississauga, ON, Canada, North America, Earth
- now why would you ever fucking write that

Come on Dude, Quit Acting Like a Rubbish Man
-yeah great title for a study guide

My own inadvertent trip into the women’s room at UTM revealed an area in which some women were busy gendering themselves.)
- i just don't get him...


That’s me! I am a “woman” and everything in society seems to confirm this, reflect this, agree about this, instruct me in this.
(Ok–after you grok that, preferably in a café with some friends until the wee hours of the night, know this: one of the facts about a ‘culture’ ...
- yeah ok so ... why
why why why why why

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS MAN?!?!?!?

and he's going to be writing my fucking exam tonight at 8 pm
fuck
maybe i should just write "the thingification of the thing yeah... dude totally fucking rad how i'm a chick all thanks to like society .. wo doesn't it blow your mind?!"

ahhhhh

tomorrow at 10 pm
i will jump for fucking joy
fuck
lame
fuck
stupid
exams
fuck

all work
and no play
makes barbara a dull girl

grindhouse

i loved you so much
you made my heart warm and fuzzy
and i just want to say thank you
for being the best thing ever

love love love love

i woke up
today no green
i saw light underneath my door
thought wo its still early
parentals are still home
looked behind my head
realized that i moved myself and the clock was at my feet now
so i looked at the time it was 6
i was like yeah maybe i'll sleep until 7
6 30 i get up
i go walk around
i decided i wanted omelet
so i start making them
i turn the fan on
cause they smell
it smelled so bad
so i threw it out
what a waste of perfectly good food
so i made scrambled eggs
attempt number 2 was a success
reminder: don't fucking make omelets
i washed and cleaned
i decided to straighten my hair
got pissed off it was so fucking straight and staticy
so i put it up
i kept applying fucking cream on my cold sore
i hate cold sores
so then i was debating whether i want coffee
did iwant the fucking coffee
did i really?
no
i didnt want to make it
plus i was already late
just as i was about to walk out the door
i realized i had to piss
so i ran upstairs to pee
and then i ran outside
i was walking down manitoba
fucking cars early in the morning
they piss me off
so i'm walking and walking and walking
longest street of my life
then i finally get closer to royal york
and i'm watching the people
and they start edging closer to the bus stop
so i know the bus is coming
so i run
cause i know that'll be the last bus i can take in order to not be late
so i get on it
so packed
i hate people in the morning
everyone's coughing and everyone's grumpy
its gross
so i get to royal york station
and i run downstairs just like every other day
through the crowd
trying not to trip
realizing i'm not moving my arms as i'm walking down the stairs
and get awkward
anyways
so i get to the platform and wait for the subway
and lean in the same spot i lean in every day
it's my spot
if someone else is there i glare
i don't like it when people take my little comfort zone
odd yes
so i get on the subway
train seems to be going slower than usual
there was a guy sitting down beside me
moving his head so violently to his music
how could he feel no shame
i'd feel so awkward doing that
anyways
i get to islington
walk slowly up the stairs cause i know my bus isn't there yet
i see the light flashing
but i know its the 1 and not the 1c
i buy some student tickets
from the same guy i always buy them from
i noticed he geled his hair today
probably wanted to impress some lady
i noticed a couple beside me feeding the pigeons
they don't need to be fed
so i put my tickets into my wallet
and i look up and see the couple and this lady staring at me
i feel embarassed even though i have no reason to be
i walk up the stairs
and stand and wait for the bus
for what feels like 5 minutes
infact turns out to be 15
i see the same people i see every tuesday and thursday
guy in the orange jacket
girl with the white jacket
guy who looks like weezer singer
same people
different day
bus driver was different today
he was like a spider
fat belly but skinny neck, arms and legs
spiderman decided to get coffee before taking off
made me angry
its like a tease
the bus is there
its cold outside
but i'm going to get my coffee
fuck you spiderman
so he came back
and i got on the bus
i wanted to go to my seat
in the far left corner of the bus
but orange jacket man sat there
asshole
so i sat infront of him
took out my music
and turned it on
we left the station
bus ride was long
i was tempted to fall asleep
my cold sore was hurting
but there was nothing i could do
we go through this tunnel thing
and there's a bump on the end
on dundas
i always watch the front of the bus jerk up
and i know its going to be a big bump
today
the bus jerked but it wasn't that much of a jump
people got off at the same stops they get off
other school people got on
same ones every time
maybe they're different
yeah they have to be different
i'm just not sure if i care
i won't remember them anyways
so i get to school
and go to the south building
i really wanted a coffee but i knew i had to get into class
because Fullard likes to embarass you if you're late
and make you walk to the emergency exit
so i get into class
and see Adam
he's dressed nicely today
special occasion? .. to impress girls of course
next came Noor
i love Noor he's the nicest guy
i always say that about him
but its so true
kindest person ever
then Ivana came
sat beside Adam
he loves her
i don't think she's impressed
the back door of that room slams and locks
so Ivana opened it more but people came and went
and slammed it and locked it
so this one weird girl who put her shoe there once
got a coathanger and put it in there
it was strange
she's strange
and has a monkey hat
i want to befriend her
Ivana had a really nice outfit today
i like her style she really is as pretty as Adam thinks
Fullard talks about how a cell can manipulate its morphology
to expand its V memb and the length of time it remains charged
that hour goes by slowly
but he's a good prof
very flamboyant
i enjoy his lectures
i feel like he talks straight to me
i like when that happens
the class is over
and Ryan never showed
i think Slacker
and wish that i also skipped
but not really because my notes are better than Adams
and i'd be kicking myself in the ass about it
next i had a 3 hour break
it really flew by
Adam and i decided to go to the library
but before i had to check what kind of coffee
we had in the south building
i decided i would wait until we got to ccit
as i'm walking to ccit with Adam
talking as always non stop
i see Shane
he looked happy to see me
even though he denied it when i mentioned it later on
i didn't stop to talk to him because i wanted my coffee
really badly
so i get to ccit
and they had fair trade or hazelnut cream
tough choice
i got fair trade
AND bought chocolate chip cookies
it was worth breaking my 10 over
then we headed towards the library
talking non stop
we never have silence
we always talk
adam and i
in the library we get the couches
and talk for a bit
then read
and do work
but talk
mainly about love and relationships
adam's favourite topic of course
and how women are fucked
yes adam we're all fucked
sometimes i want to kill him
but i just deal
i don't have a friend like him
he's worth keeping around
just because of his uniqueness
we tried eating cookies
but you're not allowed to eat in the library
so i hid my cookie and ate
adam lost his appetite
but i think he was just embarassed he got told to not eat in the library
scared little boy
he left to go to class
i sat there reading
had to pee a lot because of the coffee
then i left
put cream on ma face
and went to class
i was a bit early
but Emma was there
she's so nice and sweet
then these two girls who are really good friends were there
i forgot their names
so i just smiled
offerred them cookies
no one took my cookies
i wonder why
they should have
it'd make me feel better
Nikki the TA came by
i hate her
she's always in my class
but today for some reason
we got along great
and even laughed together
it was odd
i enjoyed it
so today i didn't hate her
we get into the lab
and i put my stuff down
complain how its hot in there
and how i don't want to be there
its the same always
me complaining in there
we hand in stuff
my TA jean paul
he's really attractive
calls out my name
he just wanted to see if I was there?
it was awkward because he didn't do it to anybody else
I stood there feeling my face get red
because he mumbled something and i was confused
anyways
i didn't fail the quiz i was happy
we did the lab
it was pretty easy
putting the enzymes into the gel was exciting
i penetrated my gel
which partially destroyed it
hopefully not too badly though
it was really interesting
stuff like that makes me want to do research
anyways the lab ended really early
i asked jean paul random questions so i could talk to him
he's cute.
i am a teeny bopper i thought to myself
then Emma was happy to be leaving early so was I
we talked some more
talked to the girl infront of me a lot too
i don't know her name
but she wears a lot of pink
it must be her favourite colour
and her lab partner was a guy
shaggy hair
funny charlie brown face
he was very nice
i told them about the superhero party
because i felt awkward with the silence
then we all left
Emma and i went our separate ways
I went to the bus stop
and saw my bus there
didn't feel like running
and it left
i didn't really care
i knew another one would come in half an hour or so
didn't care
then i saw Emma again
i didn't talk to her she was far away
who knows if she saw me
a couple of buses came
i debated long thinking about whether to get on them
but i didn't
i kept looking around to see if Shane would come
i didn't know whether he was at school or not
but when the 24 came i settled on the fact he went home already
so
i waited and waited for the 1c
it finally came
i noticed this irish looking gangster guy smoking
he had a flipped up collar
he was cute
these polish bitches were pushing me to get into the bus
i felt like elbowing them in the face
cuntbags
but i didn't
i just pushed them aside when i got on the bus
that was a little fuck you to them
it made me smile
i found a seat near the window again
i love window seats
got my music out
and worried about breathing too loudly again
always with the breathing
i'd be embarassed if i heard myself breathing loudly
and i feel embarassed when people hear my music
so i play around with the volume constantly
i was thinking of how odd i am
the bus gets pretty full
but i was really into my music
and kept noticing the irish guy look at me
he was dirty
i changed my mind about the cuteness
i get to islington station
and i saw all these cops and flashing lights
i didn't think about it
nor did i care to look at what happened
it was just there
and of no interest to me
pretty indifferent of me but oh well
I turned my music down a bit to not have it blaring
i didn't even think twice about walking home
but when i got to the office on bloor
it hit me its really windy outside
doi really want to be walking home
but i figured it was too late to run back to the subway
and taking a bus from royal york just isnt worth my 2.75
i was really enjoying my music
and i was hoping i didn't sit in something nasty on the bus
i felt like my ass was so exposed
odd feeling
i felt better when i got to royal york
the walk there always seems like its going to be so easy
but by the time i get to marta's house i get angry at the twist and turn
and the downhill and uphill
its annoying
i was debating buying starbucks but it was too late
and i didn't feel like wasting money
plus i still had my cookies
which reminded me i had coffee already
it was getting dark
and snowing
and i had great music playing on shuffle
it was a really nice walk
i picked up some snow with my hand
and thought about how shane was right
its not the right snow to make a snowman
how did he know
he must have tried it as well
it was really dark by the time i got home
saw my dad's car in the front
thought how i should have called and he could have picked me up
but i regretted thinking that
considering it was such a nice walk
i was releaved when the door just opened
because i didn't feel like shuffling through my bag to get my keys
my parents were in the kitchen
i like coming home to them
i don't like an empty house
my mum bought me soup and a sandwich
egg salad yum
but iwas cold and my pants were wet from the snow
so i went upstairs to change
but i couldn't help and turn on the computer
so i said hi to some people
and went to eat my food
got back wrote a shitty lj post
and marta wanted a full story
so she got one
enjoy
and sorry to everyone else
haha

i have a.d.d.
and like copeland
but don't like essays


fuck

206 bones
all their muscle attachments
special features
and points of articulation

i need a miracle
and some strong coffee

i love marta so much
she is the coolest person ever
she has restored my faith in the fact that sometimes polish people are sweet.
chances are she is also the one writing this.
LOVE!!!!

"will you put on the fire for me
draw the bath and remind me to eat
you won't need a real job
because i would love to pay for you
you could be a good wife to me
i would love to pay for you
you are the maid for me"


jealous
why won't it happen to me
longterm solitude
is the key

ahhh
my only love
and soon he will rot away
boourns
i love pumpkins

pumpkin pie for breakfast owns
what doesn't own is the fact
i have to run in the rain to catch my bus soon
i'm debating whether i want to go shopping before school
i need a winter jacket
and its supposed to be 6 tomorrow
so i think today is a pretty good day to get one
..but do i really want to carry around shopping bags at school
especially if i'm going to be there until 9 tonight
oh man

i feel nerves like hell
friday osteology bell ringer
my TA sent everyone an email saying
yeah so i thought two questions per one station would be enough
but then i figured nah i'll make it 4 questions

answer 4 questions in 60 seconds with 30 stations
fuck her
i need to study i havent started yet
and i might cram all tomorrow
or start tonight when i get home around 10

nerves
not to mention all the other shit i have to do in my other classes
and i'm behind in my readings

so fuck my last entry
everything doesnt work out
im stressed and im pissed off
haha
but in that gay sort of way i always am
i need more coffee
i've become an addict once again
one milk one sugar in hazelnut cream coffee
oh man it is the best

best day
love stuff

kevin devine is playing this sunday
i haven't seen him since
i don't even remember
but he's so amazing
and i want someone to come with
boourns
haha

yeah so i was just thinking
that really this has been the best summer ever
well maybe not ever
but definitely the best in a long time
my buds and i have finally done a lot of different things
started going places
doing awesome shit like camping, biking, random trips to niagara, bar hopping, going to the beach, even played some sports
i mean it really does go on and on
even though we still have our random meets at timmies
it hasn't been a tradition this summer

it's been an amazing summer
only a couple of weeks left until school starts again
and we'll all be busy with work and all
so while we still have summer
we're probably going to make the most of it
i'm thinking along the lines of
cne cottage and parties
stoked

its really awesome how this summer
i finally got to really know marta, oxana and martin
i mean i've always known them but not really as much as i do know
and its pretty sweet to have noticed the really amazing people in your life
its also really sweet
to have jer back imean it sucked not having him around cause he's the best
and its awesome my parentals have gotten nicer to me post-ryan
all in all i'm content
even though i do have my lame moments of sadness
where i wish i had a special person in my life
but at this moment really reflecting on shit
i've got a shitload of special people in my life
and a dude isn't all that important
fuck not having anyone like me i don't give a shit right now
all that matters are my friends and fam
fuck i love them

( Fuck Yeah camping )</lj-cut

yay love

yesterday
totally fun party
totally sweet people
i love life
tonight
best night of my life
best concert i have ever been to
most amazing fricken omg
fucking hell
LOVE BRAND NEW!!!